Monday, July 25, 2011

#1(redo) My blog is my failure

Earlier this summer I decided to take on a task: blogging for 5 times a week for 6 months.

I made it to #4.

What happened? Well, I decided to begin the challenge in the middle of an extremely busy time of life. I was working from early morning till late evenings 6 days a week. It's an excuse and it's lame - but I was just too tired.

So I'm starting over. And readjusting the goals. 3 blogs per week for 6 months. I could feel pathetic about it but this blog (and my life) is to be about facing fear and failure. And I'm learning that unless I can experience and overcome fear in the most personal areas of life - from blogs to a boyfriend to jobs - then I am a fraud.

So I'm going to start over with a personal goal done in public view. (my blog)

I'm going to go against the norm/the trend/the pressure to be independent and move across the country to see what good things could happen with a boy. (my boyfriend)

And I'm going to trust with unrelenting hope that there is a job out there. (my future job)

It might be more of a trust thing that this job will not define me. And it will be used by God to make much of this life. I so deeply want to make much of this life I've been given.

1 comments:

Mom said...

And you have made much of your life for so many people not the least of which are your Mom and Dad who are oh-so-proud of you. And think of all those spiritual lives you have touched around the world no less!